YSunday, March 26, 2006
i've exhausted the tryin to make things work when the outcome is so transparent phase. guess there won't be any hope of eternal bliss in life and love huh? hahahah!
bla..bla..bla..all the cliched thing in life..is just so boring already...give me something new to deal with PUH-LEASE! im already so bored of wanting to feel what everyone in this whole blue world keep longing for. take me to the other side of the rainbow and let me forget the blues of solitude. show me how to embrace this life of mine..this brain..this wit, this knowledge, body and soul.PLUS this solitary moment of mine.heh.
how am i to not think of it as sorrow and emptiness? espesh wen each time i walk i see people madly in love altho fighting. am i to be caged? i dun wish for that to happen...to be imprisoned by my fear and weakness. would i be stronger if i had been to the other side of the rainbow...the greener part of life. would it be clearer and would it make me fathom the reason behind all this? like why does HE put me here and make me feel this way?
so we keep havin things tat we dun wan laid on a silver platter served in front of us...and despite its value..we keep pushin it aside cuz..it is just not what we are looking for..and then the chance to our choice came and as always..the sugar rush. as ALWAYS, we get hurt by that chance that we took despite how cautious we were.all that effort gone to waste. oh.bollocks.here i am.
talkin abt the cliched crap again.haha.human!
my~~..although i know we didnt have much to talk abt..i just THOUGHT it'd work out somhow.BUT IT DIDNT.
dank.i hear the nagging at the back of my head again...
"emy...ur only turnin 19..there's no need to rush for all this"
haha...its rite you knoe...only 19...i still can wait for as long as i want...even as i age...hehehe...*bleahh*
anyhowz..i learnt the word PROWLING last night...haha. and that there's an
Al-Khair Mosque somewhere in CCK..hahahahaha.
_callous_ was here with you at
